I've come to realize that no matter what I do or what anyone else tries to do. No one will be perfect, BUT the world wants perfect from you. Whether it be the way you look, how you act, or who you are as a person in general.
The world has come up with this image in their IMAGINATION of what people should and should not look like. What your weight is, what your height is, the color of your hair, the length of your hair, how far apart your eyes are, how big your nose is, what you wear, what you don't wear, how much money you have or don't have, or what you decide to eat. Whether you have come to realize it or not, it's true. You will never be perfect, you will never have everyone's approval. The only way you can make something of yourself is if you have truly come to terms with YOURSELF and no one else. Don't cut your hair/grow it out, buy different clothes, or lose/gain weight for anyone but yourself.
You are here for a reason. You are alive, breathing, and doing something on this earth. It is your choice what that is and how to go about that. You were meant to help someone in their life and have someone help you in yours. Only you can answer the questions: "Who am I?" "Why am I here?" "What will I do?" etc. Don't ask anyone else because it's all up to you. You need to make decisions for yourself and nobody else along the way. No it's not selfish, it's human and THE ONLY way you will find the honest and true answers.
People can inspire you, you can have heroes, and they will lead you to make your own decisions and help you have a higher understanding of greater things. But be YOUR OWN hero and you'll get even farther.
If you think you are good enough for this world than it's true. The only person who can make a correct assumption about you IS YOU. Believe in yourself and you can start your journey. You are who you are, embrace it for you. Don't change to please anyone, because if they truly care about you and need you in their life they will love you for who you are and what you want to become... they will support you every step of the way. That's what a real friend is. Stop your whining and get with it. Leave the ones behind who want to be left behind, they are meant to stay.
"Just be you and you'll already be doing what you want." -Cara Jolley
perfection is over rated.
You are good enough for this world, you just have to believe it.
♥Cara Jolley♥
☼ginger queen☼
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
that's all...
It's clearly been a while and the reason for that would be I decided I'm not good at this at all. I never know what to say, and reading about "my day" isn't that fun. haha I'm also talking to myself since I have no followers AT ALL. I guess this is just like a journal for me or somethin. I honestly kind of hate it, it's just showing me how much I really can't come up with anything creative to write about. I've written one poem in my life (it was written 3 weeks ago by the way) and it really isn't that good AT ALL.
I guess I should just state:
I miss people, a lot of people actually.
I have reeeally good friend and always have but there are of course those people I've lost contact with or I'm not as close with or maybe never got to know as much as I wanted to. There are also people I choose to "deal with" because I don't want ANY drama, they would be considered REALLY dramatic people that most people (unless also dramatic) would not want to associate with. So, do you want to know why I stick around for some people? It's because I can't lose friends. I believe it is THE WORST feeling in the world to lose a friend. NO MATTER what they've done to you or do to you, it still hurts to realize maybe you really aren't friends. As well as it's hard for me to trust people with how many times and the ways I've been hurt so when I lose someone I THOUGHT I could trust it sucks to have to realize the truth (you can no longer trust your "friend"). I recently had a "losing of a friend" that I'm not really sure about. Not sure how to help him or how I can tell him that I need to know I can be his friend. I feel he needs someone and I like to be there for him. :/ I've completely lost a friend previously in my life and it was THE WORST EXPERIENCE of my life so far... :/ Even though it's clear they don't want or deserve me in their life, it still hurts to know I can't even say Happy Birthday to them without getting an angry message back.
I recently (last night) hung out with an old friend. It was the best to see her, and realize we still are really good friends. As well as I know we can still be close and I can still trust her with a lot. ^_^
I would also like to state:
The fact of: Cara Jolley is a sucker for love. a good boyfriend, a true relationship. Now I've never been in love honestly buut I love finding something real to have. Someone to hold my hand, smile at, stare at, cuddle with, give big hugs to, talk to, joke with, kiss passionately, love unconditionally... etc. ^_^ I think I need something like that. (blah, blah, blah, blah...) Well I'm not really sure what else to say.
This has yet again been a pointless post besides helping me let my feelings out(:
thanks to anyone who actually reads this.
simply a ginger.
simple a bean.
♥ginger bean
I guess I should just state:
I miss people, a lot of people actually.
I have reeeally good friend and always have but there are of course those people I've lost contact with or I'm not as close with or maybe never got to know as much as I wanted to. There are also people I choose to "deal with" because I don't want ANY drama, they would be considered REALLY dramatic people that most people (unless also dramatic) would not want to associate with. So, do you want to know why I stick around for some people? It's because I can't lose friends. I believe it is THE WORST feeling in the world to lose a friend. NO MATTER what they've done to you or do to you, it still hurts to realize maybe you really aren't friends. As well as it's hard for me to trust people with how many times and the ways I've been hurt so when I lose someone I THOUGHT I could trust it sucks to have to realize the truth (you can no longer trust your "friend"). I recently had a "losing of a friend" that I'm not really sure about. Not sure how to help him or how I can tell him that I need to know I can be his friend. I feel he needs someone and I like to be there for him. :/ I've completely lost a friend previously in my life and it was THE WORST EXPERIENCE of my life so far... :/ Even though it's clear they don't want or deserve me in their life, it still hurts to know I can't even say Happy Birthday to them without getting an angry message back.
I recently (last night) hung out with an old friend. It was the best to see her, and realize we still are really good friends. As well as I know we can still be close and I can still trust her with a lot. ^_^
I would also like to state:
The fact of: Cara Jolley is a sucker for love. a good boyfriend, a true relationship. Now I've never been in love honestly buut I love finding something real to have. Someone to hold my hand, smile at, stare at, cuddle with, give big hugs to, talk to, joke with, kiss passionately, love unconditionally... etc. ^_^ I think I need something like that. (blah, blah, blah, blah...) Well I'm not really sure what else to say.
This has yet again been a pointless post besides helping me let my feelings out(:
thanks to anyone who actually reads this.
simply a ginger.
simple a bean.
♥ginger bean
Sunday, July 18, 2010
a weekend of splendor
My day with Kaya and Kohlby was GREAT!! haha
we went out to eat at the marvelous 25Main in town, then went and explored at Target, that's always awesome. Then Kohlby had a prior engagement he had to be at. So Kaya and I went back to her place and just sat and watched stupid t.v. such as Jerseylicious and The Kardashians(: It's always more fun to watch it with a girl friend haha!! oh what a laugh. Then Kaya wanted some onion rings so we went to Denny's and I saw my best friend/sister Lindsay Squires :D i miss her. :(
Then we of course came back to my house and sat for a bit and Kaya had to go home. I already miss her. haha :P My Saturday consisted of hanging out with a friend Sienna. haha We rented The Bounty Hunter and The Crazies ^_^ oh gosh!! The Bounty Hunter was good, I liked it a lot. Then we had to bring down the laptop so that Sienna could distract herself while watching The Crazies. :P It worked, we didn't remember a lot of it. but started taking pictures on the Webcam and videoing some of our reactions to the movie ^_^ we were that bored. I actually ended up staying the night over there. We woke up and actually had some COOKIE DOUGH for breakfast (best breakfast ever) and just REwatching The Crazies, we learned a lot about the story. HAHA Not as scary as it seems. Then we went to my family dinner, went back to her house with Abby (my cousin) I did their hair and makeup and we went out to the park (park after dark) and I took some pictures of the both of them. oh here are just a few of them. :D
(sienna. short darker hair)
(abby. long, dirtyblondish hair)
I AM QUITE PROUD OF HOW A LOT OF THESE TURNED OUT. ^-^
but that's been my weekend. thanks for gazing. :D
simply a ginger.
simply a bean.
ginger bean
☼peace☼
we went out to eat at the marvelous 25Main in town, then went and explored at Target, that's always awesome. Then Kohlby had a prior engagement he had to be at. So Kaya and I went back to her place and just sat and watched stupid t.v. such as Jerseylicious and The Kardashians(: It's always more fun to watch it with a girl friend haha!! oh what a laugh. Then Kaya wanted some onion rings so we went to Denny's and I saw my best friend/sister Lindsay Squires :D i miss her. :(
Then we of course came back to my house and sat for a bit and Kaya had to go home. I already miss her. haha :P My Saturday consisted of hanging out with a friend Sienna. haha We rented The Bounty Hunter and The Crazies ^_^ oh gosh!! The Bounty Hunter was good, I liked it a lot. Then we had to bring down the laptop so that Sienna could distract herself while watching The Crazies. :P It worked, we didn't remember a lot of it. but started taking pictures on the Webcam and videoing some of our reactions to the movie ^_^ we were that bored. I actually ended up staying the night over there. We woke up and actually had some COOKIE DOUGH for breakfast (best breakfast ever) and just REwatching The Crazies, we learned a lot about the story. HAHA Not as scary as it seems. Then we went to my family dinner, went back to her house with Abby (my cousin) I did their hair and makeup and we went out to the park (park after dark) and I took some pictures of the both of them. oh here are just a few of them. :D
(sienna. short darker hair)
(abby. long, dirtyblondish hair)
I AM QUITE PROUD OF HOW A LOT OF THESE TURNED OUT. ^-^
but that's been my weekend. thanks for gazing. :D
simply a ginger.
simply a bean.
ginger bean
☼peace☼
Thursday, July 15, 2010
...finally.
I was finally convinced to start a blog.
uhh, I'm not even sure how interesting this will be considering I don't have too much to write about. I guess I'll tell you a bit about myself to begin with.
My name is Cara Jolley. I just graduated from highschool 2010 ^-^ I went to Tuacahn High School for the performing arts and I must say tis THEE best school I could've gone to! (and if you may be someone debating whether to go or not, think no more, take a chance and get your butt over there) I am quite the character, the kind a lot of people can get along with most of the time. I'm just warning you I am really bizarre :P well whatever I'm done writing "about me" blehhh... hahha hope you enjoy ^_^
uhh, I'm not even sure how interesting this will be considering I don't have too much to write about. I guess I'll tell you a bit about myself to begin with.
My name is Cara Jolley. I just graduated from highschool 2010 ^-^ I went to Tuacahn High School for the performing arts and I must say tis THEE best school I could've gone to! (and if you may be someone debating whether to go or not, think no more, take a chance and get your butt over there) I am quite the character, the kind a lot of people can get along with most of the time. I'm just warning you I am really bizarre :P well whatever I'm done writing "about me" blehhh... hahha hope you enjoy ^_^
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